Home Study, Take 3

It's time for our Florida home study. The social worker will be at the house Tuesday for interviews and a safety inspection.

I am more relaxed this go-round, now that we have two of these under our belts already. But I still don't want to do it.

It's scary to be vulnerable. It's hard to face your weaknesses.
At least, it is for me. I don't think I'm alone in that.

We're in the part of the wait when I sometimes feel discouraged. I wish there was something proactive we could do other than just...wait. But, that's all there is. We can read adoption books and cook new recipes and research Bulgaria, but it's all still a wait.

Even though the social worker visits are intrusive and emotionally exhausting, I am thankful that we have needed to redo them three times now. The paperwork and planning help me feel like we are taking real steps. Making real progress.

So, on Tuesday, I will clean the house. I will laugh too much while the social worker is here and cry too much once she's gone. Caleb will say something hilarious that will make me relax and stress at the same time. We will finish the night with a toast to one more down...and hopefully no more to go.

As always,
thank you. I'll keep you posted.

xo