Mother's Day
Mother's Day brings a lot of emotions for many people...those who are moms, those who want to be moms, those who have lost moms...and it is an interesting day for adoptive moms. Some adoptive mommas are waiting on their babies to come home. Some are navigating the waters of their child's grief for a birth mom or foster mom. Some are trying to figure out if they should celebrate birth mothers or not. It's all very tricky and there is not one right way.
My Mother's Day was a mix. I have two fantastically funny kids and it is a joy (and a pain) to be their momma. But, I am also missing a piece. Mother's Day was wonderful and happy and relaxing and incomplete. Will all my cubs be with their momma bear next year? The year after? Will future Mother's Days be a time for thanksgiving or a time for grief? We celebrate moms because they comfort and care for us...who is comforting and caring for our kids right now? Is anyone?
Adoption only comes from a place of pain.
We will be beyond thrilled and lucky and blessed when our children come home. But the reality is, adoption only comes from a place of pain.
We don't know what our specific pain looks like right now, but we are feeling the ache of waiting and knowing that our kids are in a less than stellar situation.
Our home study is complete and was mailed today for immigration approval. These are the steps that must comfort us as we wait. Every piece of paper we complete brings us one step closer to our first Mother's Day all together. We don't know how long we will wait, which is hard. But we do know that God has chosen me to be the mother and Caleb to be the father of 2 incredible kids in America and 1 or 2 incredible kids in Bulgaria. And eventually, we will all celebrate Mother's Day together.
Maybe with tears.
Maybe with flowers.
Probably not with sleeping in because that many kids doesn't seem conducive to sleep.
But, however we celebrate, we will all be together.
My Mother's Day was a mix. I have two fantastically funny kids and it is a joy (and a pain) to be their momma. But, I am also missing a piece. Mother's Day was wonderful and happy and relaxing and incomplete. Will all my cubs be with their momma bear next year? The year after? Will future Mother's Days be a time for thanksgiving or a time for grief? We celebrate moms because they comfort and care for us...who is comforting and caring for our kids right now? Is anyone?
Adoption only comes from a place of pain.
We will be beyond thrilled and lucky and blessed when our children come home. But the reality is, adoption only comes from a place of pain.
We don't know what our specific pain looks like right now, but we are feeling the ache of waiting and knowing that our kids are in a less than stellar situation.
Our home study is complete and was mailed today for immigration approval. These are the steps that must comfort us as we wait. Every piece of paper we complete brings us one step closer to our first Mother's Day all together. We don't know how long we will wait, which is hard. But we do know that God has chosen me to be the mother and Caleb to be the father of 2 incredible kids in America and 1 or 2 incredible kids in Bulgaria. And eventually, we will all celebrate Mother's Day together.
Maybe with tears.
Maybe with flowers.
Probably not with sleeping in because that many kids doesn't seem conducive to sleep.
But, however we celebrate, we will all be together.
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